Basically two things I want to say.
Firstly, I want to think. I want to think about God and life and existence. I want to think about reality and its complexities and how different parts of reality interact and the implications of that. I want to philosophize and understand things as well can be done with finite human consciousness. I’m uncertain about using the phrase “as well as can be” because that feels a little too presumptuous. Of course I want to do so, but I’m frightened of making an impossibility my goal. Nevertheless I do want to think well. I want to think skilfully.
Secondly, I want to write. I want to record thought in a communicative form. I want to weave with words an imprint of my thoughts and view of reality. (Was that a mixed metaphor?) I want to write down my philosophical musings so that I can read them back later and add to them. This would sort of a breadcrumb trail to prevent myself from going in circles. I also want to write truth in other forms. I want to write stories and poetry and communicate truth in a beautiful fashion. Again this is starting to look like too high of an aspiration, but I mean more or less to write in as beautiful a fashion as I can reasonably form.
I changed my mind about there being only two things I wanted to say. Beyond knowing truth and writing truth, I want to live truth. I guess in summary I want to be a philosopher who writes things down and lives according to the truth.